when i posted this photo to flickr, i mentioned that i may write a blog post about it. i thought about it all day and decided to go ahead with the post, although its pretty personal and difficult to put into words.

this photograph is about depression – which is something that i struggle with. it sneaks up on me from time to time. and now is one of those times.

the sadness – it climbs over me – suffocating. it blocks out the light. and, that’s what i was trying to convey with this photograph. that sense of something washing over you while you fight against it. you squirm. you tug. you beg to be released because all you want is to feel joy for yourself and for others.

i know exactly what is causing this particular episode. i know that it is temporary. but at this very moment, its just a battle. that heaviness is pressing down and i am using everything i have to push it back. and, everyday, when this cloak comes over me, i say thanks for the love that i have in my life from my husband and from my family and friends. and everyday, when this cloak comes over me, i say thanks for the one thing that gives voice to everything that’s pushed down inside – and that’s my art.

and, maybe tomorrow, i’ll break free.

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