I’ve been absent. I know. I started this new blog with every intention of keeping it current. But the days slip past like a whisper.  Suddenly, its been nearly a month since my last post.  Where did that time go?

I look back at the past month and try to see where it is that I have been.  There have been some definite highlights -seeing Dave Matthews at the Gorge,  going on a trip to NYC and meeting new friends, celebrating my birthday.  But, those are concrete events that don’t really account for the lack of updates. What keeps me from coming here everyday and sharing my life is darker.  Its the sadness that comes from being in limbo. There are things that I am working towards, but they are things that don’t happen overnight. I have to wait. I have to be patient. But, as the days go by I feel suffocated by the waiting. I feel overwhelmed by the list of things that I want to be doing that I cannot do. I feel oppressed by the things that I must do that I absolutely hate doing. I know that this is temporary. I know that, soon, I will be where I want to be.

In the meantime, I wait.

Apparently, I wait quietly.

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